"Although I speak from my own experience, I feel that no one has the right to impose his or her beliefs on another person. I will not propose to you that my way is best. The decision is up to you. If you find some point which may be suitable for you, then you can carry out experiments for yourself. If you find that it is off no use, then you can discard it." Dalai Lama...

Monday, 25 April 2011

The scene is set...

For some Al fresco dining with relatives...

Just hope it stays warm enough :-) Will light the fire and hope for the best..

This little fella walked onto the Patio as I was taking pictures :-)

Milly put him under some shrubbery but is concerned as she says that she read that if they are around during the day there is something wrong with them..
Off to google that....

Thursday, 21 April 2011


We heard from Alan's brother that his biological Dad has a serious heart problem and may not have long to live. Alan hasn't seen his Dad since before we got Married and infrequently prior to that.
It's a long story and not mine to tell - suffice to say his Dad had severe mental health problems.He was not equipped to parent, he was very controlling and the home was not a happy place. He and Al's Mum separated eventually and as the years moved on Alan and his brothers chose not to have much contact with him.We have some contact with a few members of the family but since his Mum died we have lost touch with the many nieces and nephews...

Milly has known that Alan had a biological Dad and a step dad.
We discussed the situation and whether - by telling one of Alan's brothers about his illness - he was reaching out to them.

Alan has some thinking to do and some decisions to make about whether or not he can forgive his Dad's actions and to try and contact him before he dies or simply go to his funeral.

Milly is always so wise in these kinds of conversations. She is an old head on young shoulders..In her role as Family hug monitor ( a role bestowed on her when she was younger ;-)  ) she also ensured we all had a cuddle..

After Al had gone to bed she wrote a note for him and made him a heart shaped, Best Dad award. She displayed them on the Island unit and showed me them.I said how lovely that was and she said
" You know - because of his Dad..."

I stepped out of my room this morning onto a handwritten note - left for me after I had gone to bed. It was in purple ( my fav colour ) with some words done in multi coloured letters.

Best Momma in the world award.
You do loads of nice and self-less things for me almost every minute and that's what being a fabbity fab Momma means!
I love u and even if I don't always say it
I love you, you r the best Momma
and I mean that
loads of love

Milly and Pan

Sunday, 17 April 2011

Just to say Hi :-)

Things have been slow here - to say the least!
Most days over the last few weeks I have been getting up and finding the sofa and laying there watching daytime TV.I have had little energy and no inclination to do anything other than vegetate!
There have been a couple of days out with friends and family and a foray to do the shopping but on the whole that has been the routine. Milly has been an angel and for the first few days when I was too tired to move she conquered her fear of the oven to make me potato waffles with grated cheese for my lunch - bless her :-)
Alan has kept things going and looked after me, cooking meals , cleaning the house, doing the ironing, walked the dog and managed to fit in time to play with Milly.

It has been a combination of hormonal changes,M.E and then to cap it all a cough and a cold...My body was telling me something and - even though I didn't want to hear it - I listened and gave in...

Emily and I have just had a new treatment from Rezwana ( more on that later when I have more time ) the signs are good and wellness is around the corner :-)

Hope you and yours are all fit and well...