I have had a day where I really did not want to do anything,I got up and browsed and after breakfast Milly and I sat together in the dining room ,her on her DS and me on here.I had no inclination to suggest anything else just in case she took me up on it !!!!
I then got ready and cleaned up whilst Milly played.I was feeling really tired and then found out the reason why, I have my first period in over three months and I could of cheered ,I have never been so glad to get one. I have had constant PMT symptoms over the three months and was sure on numerous occasions that all the pain I was getting meant one was on its way but it never happened, just hope that now it has arrived I can get back to normal,well what I call normal LOL.
I have also decided to change some things to help with the Menopause symptoms and hope to get a kick start on Thusday. Alan is taking two days off to be with Emily and I am going to do two detox days where I will just have Juices.If the past is anything to go by I will probably have a day with a severe bad head and aches and pains then I should feel much better the second day.After that I will change my diet as I have got back to eating too much unhealthy food and will have to go through a couple of weeks of cravings but then it will get easier. I am going to see a therapist on Thursday afternoon,she does Reiki, reflexology plus various massages ,and Bowen technique not sure which treatment to have yet but will have a good chat and see what fits best.
Milly and I cleaned Liz rabbit out this afternoon and then Milly went on the trampoline whilst I sat and had a cuppa, I also attempted to read Alfie Kohn Unconditional Parenting but Milly was chatting away and I gave it up and sat in the sun and talked about our daemons with her.
She had decided this morning not to go to Brownies and after initially suggesting she should go I backed down and accepted she was feeling under the weather, she had had a lot of excitement over the last few days and was tired. She asked to go in the bath at 6.00 and I read The Blitz and after the bath we read a little more but she was happy to turn the light out at 7.15 and was asleep within minutes just as well she hadn't gone to Brownies.
We had Emily's best friend in the car with us yesterday and on the way home from the party she started speaking to Emily in french, it was fairly basic stuff but she did it very well and confidently.Now over the last few weeks I have not had any wobbles about education and what Emily may be missing out on by not going to school but that gave me one last night!!! I foolishly began comparing them and had to stop myself and give myself a good talking to.These doubts just come out of left field when you least expect and attack any insecurities.I have mulled it over today,I got over it and got back on track. If Milly wants to learn a language it will happen when she is ready, so far any attempt however subtle to engage in anything to do with another language has been blocked but that goes for anything to do with maths or anything else she is just not interested in.The things she finds interesting she does and gets enjoyment from as well as knowledge.
We are working hard to ensure Emily is free and happy and I believe that in the long run a childhood filled with love ,freedom ,and happiness will pay dividends in adulthood.
It is easier to fill an adults knowledge and academic holes than it is to fill emotional or spiritual ones
Not sure who wrote that but it is part of a quote I have on my wall in the dining room ,specifically put there for times like this......